It's Been Over a Month!

It has been over a month since my last post. I have to admit that over the next 3 months, the posts will be few and far between as we have very limited internet access for the time being. I have settled into my summer job and am enjoying it very much, but it is very busy and stressful at times. Just to catch everyone up on a few personal things.

I have been struggling a lot lately about continuing my studies in education towards "becoming" a teacher. I have felt unsettled about continuing my education degree for a few months now, and it has intensified in the past few weeks. In fact, I am quite sure that the Lord has laid it on my heart that I should not continue my studies in this area. There are several reasons for this. At this point, I am struggling with this because I much prefer going to school than being out in the work force until we have children. The fact is that I want to be a stay-at-home mom and will likely homeschool my kids (that I do no have yet!!). I thought maybe getting a degree in education would help me with homeschooling some day, but I'm starting to see the absurdity of that. Most everything they teach us to teach is so secular and unbiblical that I would barely use any of it if I chose to homeschool some day.

Please pray that I will be obedient to the Lord. I always said it was possible that I may not complete my education in order to receive my teaching degree, but I didn't really think that it would happen. There are so many typical "teacher" things that I would not be able to do, having been convicted by the Holy Spirit. For example, I could not teach my students the earth is billions of years old or that dinosaurs became extinct billions of years ago. I also could not promote Halloween, Santa, Elves, Easter bunnies, etc. I cannot teach grade 5 students "sexual health" in the way that teachers are requested or required to teach it. I keep hearing so many things from potential teachers about what they are learning and taught to teach, and I keep thinking, "I could not do that." God's word has reminded me of how serious it is to cause a little child to stumble.

It has practically been decided by me and my husband that I will not be finishing my degree in education. The question is now whether or not I should study something else, or not bother at all. I find my pride getting in the way so many times. I tend to concern myself with man's opinion rather than God's---I wonder what people will think when they found out I "quit" something without finishing it. I also worry about what will happen if I have no university degree--a worldly security blanket, I know.

Please pray for us that we would be obedient to the Lord.